wavesworld: so beautiful and so terrible...

yesterday would have to go down as one of the most emotionally touching times of my life. i can't believe it could get more intense than it has been, but it does...mr dave brought his guitar from new york but i didn't think i could sing anything. mitchell pushed it a bit and i laid here propped up while dave learned "song for the asking"...i sang with very little voice strength but somehow it came out sounding beautiful and sweet. then we tried "make you feel my love", and i looked up and dave was crying and mitchell was crying and i had to put my hand up so that i couldn't see them so i could finish the song. there was so much love and friendship in this room, and a deep deep sadness. we sang for an hour. each song seemed to say everything about my relationship with mitchell, our friendship with dave, and the beauty of life. i knew it was my last singing time and so did they, and mitchell didn't want it to end. these men aren't the crying types but were sobbing and tissues were flying everywhere. a most memorable gig...and an honor to share it with dave and mitchell...

each day is harder physically. i've barely been able to eat and this morning i woke up with vertigo. nothing i've done for the nausea has helped, so the hours go by slowly and with a lot of discomfort. loved ones keep calling and i don't answer the phone, but what i can do is lay here and type, so please don't feel bad if we don't get to talk. i know that you care.

if there is one thing i'd want my obituary to say it would be, "she loved and was loved"...can't think of anything better...

"the greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return"...