what came before part b...

it was a most wonderful birthday. days like this make me so happy to be alive. mitchell gave us a feast. toby came early to help him, because i wasn't able to do anything.  right before the party, i got a bout of vertigo and that was it.  i was worried, but toby told me to relax, it would all be okay.   it was very strange to do nothing but sit while everyone else was doing. that was the first time i've ever had people to my home and not hosted.  the amazing thing is how my girl friends (plus 2 boys) took over. everyone did something...by the end of the party, the house was prettier and cleaner than it was before they came. my cannon sisters worked so hard and everything was put away and just lookin downright pretty.  i said, "don't" a few times, but it didn't stop them, so i let go.  i guess that's the point of it, sometimes letting go is what is called for.  i've never been good at that, but there was such comfort in knowing that everything was taken care of and all of it done in love...i feel so fortunate.

the day was beautiful and sunny, so most of the time we were in the backyard.  joan brought her guitar and we sang some of our old faves and even made up a corny one that would lose itself in translation. we picked angel cards and tarot and we laughed...there was the birthday cake and song and i got to make another wish this year...who would've thunk it...my wish was for all of us.  there was even a surprise guest and my house is full of flowers...

and there was mitchell, as always...the one that lets me know that i am not alone...

Comments

[lynnie]

I'm so glad it was a beautiful party Wave, I thought about you all day and visualized you being very happy! Sorry I couldn't be there. Love you.

[Ellen Abels]

Wave, thanks for forwarding the link. I read back through the last few months and was so sorry to read what a rotten summer you've been having. I was away and not talking to Mitchell for what sounds like 6 really rough weeks. Just wanted to let you know that you're in my prayers, and that I loved your eloquent words, tough as they were.