we were listening to the cd sabina made for us while we packaged the small calendars for shipping. she makes great compilations. a bruce springsteen song came on. the weird thing is that i never heard the song before except last night when i was watching a television concert. i was so moved that i yelled for mitchell to come in and listen to it. hearing bruce sing the words, "i'll wait for you, and if i should fall behind, you wait for me" with clarence clemens was beautiful...so today hearing it again on my new cd was a touching coincidence...
it's a bittersweet truth that someone will always go first and someone will always stay behind...
and because of that very thing, it's been an emotional time around here. i think it started after seeing the movie "one day"... it wasn't a great film, but the ending turned my waterworks on...
we also rented a really good japanese movie called "departures". it's definitely not for everyone, but it is a beautiful story about the ceremony that happens when a body dies and the people who perform the ceremony. (not light viewing)...
so things aren't light right now. such is life...
yesterday i had more blood drawn and the red blood cells have slipped even further. they set me up for a transfusion on friday. it's gonna be an all day thing and there's no television or anything to make the time go quicker. toby said i should pretend i'm going on a long flight and pick up a few national enquirer type magazines. i think that's a cute idea and i may just do that...mitchell has to work but he'll take the bart into the city afterward so he can drive me home.
everytime i slow down enough to take in what my life would be like without mitchell, i know how fortunate i am...he's the real deal...a team player...and there's a lot of m.e. in team these days...
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