i'm a bit better today, and i can tell that because i got so angry at my brother that i got up and made some brownies, my first sweets in a long time (at least for me)...and the first time i stood and did something time consuming since the er. i don't even want to tell you about the brother part...suffice it to say matthew is still in mexico.
but there was an idea that came from frank and became more formulated when i spoke to marigrace. my friends always ask what they can do for me, and i don't really know what to say. things are kind of disjointed now, and i'm not always sure what i'll need ahead of time. frank said "your friends want to do something for you, so let us. give us a job to do" (or something to that effect)...
in the old days, when friends were sick with aids, schedules were set up so that each day, someone would come by with a meal or to do an errand or just visit. i was part of one of those schedules, and i remember it felt pretty good to do it.
today i was searching for a place that delivers food, because i don't want to be totally dependent on mitchell, especially when he's at work, especially because he has to deal with me constantly...i was just trying to come up with a potential plan in case it becomes harder to stand or walk. of course i'm hoping that they'll radiate, and i will be able to move freely again. but just in case i can't...
the idea is to set up a schedule and ask 10 of my friends (more or less) to come visit once every 10 days for a couple of hours. that way, i can see my friends, which is lovely in and of itself, but not overwhelm them with my needs. then i can know that each day, someone will visit and hopefully bring some tasty (because i still love tasty)...is that way too presumptuous?
depending on how it goes with the scans, i'm going to send out emails to my peeps and see what they think. just in a general way, though, i love the idea of friends on wheels...
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