right after the movie ended, my heart started palpitating. i was narrating that experience to mitchell, (as i do), along with the fact that i was worried because i felt so weak. mitchell didn't respond so i said it again...then i questioned why he didn't say anything, so he said something... he found it "suspicious" that i was fine throughout the movie and then "all of a sudden" i was sick...he accused me of being neurotic (ya think?)... he pointed out that i seem fine when i have something i want to do and then he added "you get every symptom you read about." i was angry and i yelled "are you sure that's what's going on. what percentage is neurosis and what part is cancer...geez do you think i'm making this crap up?" and then we went to our opposite corners of the house - again...
to be fair, when i was in school i did tend to have symptoms of pretty much every psychological diagnosis we were studying. but is that really so weird. aren't we all a little bit of everything. it's just a matter of gradations, right?
i woke up sweaty and my throat felt like it was on fire...damn, is this what they were talking about...and it's only been a few days since the procedure. i thought the side effects weren't supposed to happen for a week or two...it isn't the part of my throat that can be reached by a cough drop, either, it's way down low... i wrote to the doctor, wondering if i should buy some aloe vera juice, or maybe she had a better idea. i've been keeping myself mostly at a whisper today...which might just give mitchell the wave word vacation he needs, or might even deserve...
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