it's all how you look at it...

for years, one of my friends had a bumper sticker on her car that said "question authority".  i never read it in the way it was meant - a statement reminding us to question authority...i always thought of it as a title, like she was the question authority...

i was thinking about the question i was asked yesterday...it came from someone i've known for years..."are you sure you have cancer and not something else?"...it was at a weird time in our conversation and it sounded like a judgement.  i felt guilty at first - all this time i've been talking about cancer and i am still alive. then i got defensive. i told him that there has never been a time when i wasn't sure, except those first few minutes, when i asked the doctor if he was sure. 

his question brought up some stuff, and when i told mitchell about it, he said, "well, you do talk about your cancer a lot"...then i felt embarrassed, ashamed.  i thought, i'm not going to write about cancer anymore, not until things are really serious...i privately vowed to go on a no cancer speak fast - but that didn't last long at all. sort of how my other diets go...i may give it a try tomorrow.

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[Lynnie]

Yeah, well, if I had cancer I'd talk about it a lot too. Wave, don't even think of feeling guilty about it. We're all sitting here not having cancer, and we should judge you who is dealing with it? Fergitabout it! By the way, I haven't told you that I was diagnosed with hypothyroid a couple of months ago, and believe me, I talk about it whenever I can! xo