four twenty...

it happened quite naturally. mitchell came home from the movies, and i came home from lunch with ben...we were both feeling open and in a certain kind of mood, wanting, maybe needing to change the energy around here. we decided to celebrate in that 4-20 kind of way...pretty soon we were doing restorative yoga. it's been forever since i stretched...it felt good, a respite from the darker aspects of these times, and this body. 

and then the dancing began.  i played barry white's "you're the first, the last, my everything" and sly's "if you want me to stay" and we were definitely in the groove...i don't remember the last time we were dancing, but it comes right back to you...note to self: more of the good kind of medicine and more dancing and stretching, please...

eventually, mitchell went off to cook dinner, but i was still on a roll...as my energy lessened, the music choices slowed down.  i sat at the computer and browsed iphotos while i sang along to my faves. 

i saw pictures of my 50th, and my "5 and alive" party.  some of those peeps, i haven't seen since then.  a few, i don't even call friends anymore...and two, no longer on the planet... i saw the white kitties who lived in back for years. they'd come here to sleep when their "daddy" didn't come home...then i saw a picture of their "daddy" smiling, like a beam of light...in those days, he was a great blessing in my life...i saw a woman from work that i'm currently angry at. she was smiling in the picture, holding my cd, the one i gave as a souvenir. that picture reminded me of a bigger picture. we've known each other such a long time.

i also came across a beautiful picture of naomi. i've told you about her... the epitome of kindness and love in action...i liked it so much that i decided to share it.  this is my friend, and i'm so grateful she is in my life and that she was born in these times... 

through it all, i felt my heart soften. i felt gratitude and sadness. i often forget the gratitude part, but i remembered today.  and i wanted to forgive everyone for everything. and i wanted to be forgiven by everyone for everything. i wanted to have another party, to bring all of them together again...

  

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[Lynnie]

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