mitchell's glued to the tv...from one station to the next. one room to the next. for awhile i was lying in the bed with him while he watched on the little television, but as soon as i said i was going into the living room, he raced in like a crazy person, afraid of losing the option of the big tv. i decided to follow him and make the sofabed so that we could have the semblence of a saturday night together...he had the nerve to ask me to be polite, and not talk too much...ha...it's just like allergy season, it happens every year...basketball widow indeed.
i had my first faslodex injections the other day. one on each side of my butt, each in for one minute. i was really nervous before it happened. i took my rescue remedy and tried to breathe...it wasn't the shots really, it was just the fear of what would happen after. i followed the advice of the women on my cancer web site so the injection didn't hurt much. and so far, the side effects haven't been bad. just slight nausea, and a couple'a hot flashes...i have to go back in two weeks for an extra injection, the "loading dose". i remind myself and everyone else that there is only a small chance that it will keep the cancer from growing...i don't want to be too disappointed, or disappoint my hopeful friends/family... i've had a few well meaning peeps , some with cancer, some without, try to convince me to try another chemo. i understand their point of view, and who knows what is really the right way to go... i don't mind hearing other opinions about treatments. i just haven't changed mine.
so i have my free time again, but i miss having the little boy around. i was driving to sf the other day and noticed that i was bopping along with rhianna, and celo and kesha (whoever the heck that is), just because the radio was still on the station he liked, and i was happily remembering him singing along.
i took this picture of mitchell and his girlfriend, poppy, while we lied on the bed...i still don't understand it. i'm the one who feeds her, but he's the one she loves...
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