...of the bed, that is...the day started out off center or perhaps more accurately, i started out off center when i was awakened too early, right in the middle of a good dream...and it continued just like that until, well, now... i spilled mitchell's coffee all over our calendar research, and the rug, and then i did it again... i called to find out where my disability claim stands...what claim? my doctor forgot to send it before leaving for a long vacation...there's more, but i've already bored you to tears...well probably not to tears, but you're most likely scanning at this point...you'd think i'd have learned not to sweat the small stuff...ha...
i'm way too entranced by the michael jackson story. i have my bad guys and good guys (not many of those), and my theories about the fractured jackson family...i find it interesting that his children weren't left to any of his brothers or sisters, in case his mother couldn't take them...and i wonder about his mother, who couldn't or didn't protect michael from ongoing abuse by his father...she's now being given the job of protecting michael's kids...hmmm...question mark...
and the sleep issue...he really wanted to be able to sleep...i know how awful it is to not be able to sleep...and i imagine he had it really bad... when i was having my 4 wisdom teeth out in my twenties, i was given some kind of drug that put me out completely. when i woke up the first thing i mumbled was, "i hope death is like that". it was so peaceful, almost like not being there at all. i have a feeling the drug michael was asking for and probably took regularly did exactly that...put him out...gave him peace...someone once asked madonna if there was anything she wanted that she didn't have...her answer, "i just want to be able to sleep"...there's an enormous amount of energy output and input for these big stars...it's just too much for any human to handle...
and then farrah's death...what a crappy day to die - especially for a celebrity...i have a feeling she was a real sweet heart...i hope they both rest in peace...wouldn't it be lovely if everyone ultimately gets to rest in peace...
i remember reading a quote from the dalai lama about his special compassion for the the rich and the famous...someone asked him why, and he said, "they have so much more to let go of"...
i think i'm going back to the bed, just to get up on the other side of it...
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